it's starting to get harder to breathe.
anyway, im listening to some melancholy music so my mood is the same.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
39 days
T-minus 39 days until I board a plane headed for the other side of the world.
It's weird that when I'm about to leave on a lengthy journey, leaving behind all my friends and family, and when I should be soaking up every possible moment with them...that it's the time when I feel the most alone.
"Be happy about your growth, in which of course you can't take anyone with you, and be gentle with those who stay behind...Seek out some simple and true feeling of what you have in common with them, which doesn't necessarily have to alter when you yourself change again and again.
...Don't expect any understanding; but believe in a love that is being stored up for you like an inheritance, and have faith that in this love there is a strength and blessing so large that you can travel as far as you wish without having to step outside it." - Rainer Maria Rilke
It's weird that when I'm about to leave on a lengthy journey, leaving behind all my friends and family, and when I should be soaking up every possible moment with them...that it's the time when I feel the most alone.
"Be happy about your growth, in which of course you can't take anyone with you, and be gentle with those who stay behind...Seek out some simple and true feeling of what you have in common with them, which doesn't necessarily have to alter when you yourself change again and again.
...Don't expect any understanding; but believe in a love that is being stored up for you like an inheritance, and have faith that in this love there is a strength and blessing so large that you can travel as far as you wish without having to step outside it." - Rainer Maria Rilke
Friday, June 19, 2009
waiting!
TO DO LIST:
1. finish up personal projects like scrapbooks and photo albums
2. wait for contract and province placement from korea
3. see family/friends as much as possible
4. wait for contract and province placement from korea
5. create program manager binder and possibly plan event for work
6. wait for contract and province placement from korea
7. put together graduate school application for next year
8. wait.... OH, you get the point! =(
1. finish up personal projects like scrapbooks and photo albums
2. wait for contract and province placement from korea
3. see family/friends as much as possible
4. wait for contract and province placement from korea
5. create program manager binder and possibly plan event for work
6. wait for contract and province placement from korea
7. put together graduate school application for next year
8. wait.... OH, you get the point! =(
Sunday, May 17, 2009
another one
Another quote I really like. Definitely more relevant to my current situation...
I am thinking about myself twenty years from now. And I know what she would say.
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
- Mark Twain
I am thinking about myself twenty years from now. And I know what she would say.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
gradu-ma-cating.
First off, having officially finished school five months ago, commencement this past week was a little anti-climatic. But, I guess spending five years working toward this moment meant I could manage to wait a few more months. With my diploma already in my possession, a semi-temporary job, and working plans for the next year, actually graduating seemed sort of... redundant. But celebrating Senior Week with my friends, remembering freshman year, and having my parents come up to celebrate in all my glory; well, that was pretty nice.
Graduation was really for my parents, not for me. I had forgotten that I was their firstborn and that I was graduating from college. Technically the first in my family to do so (do cousins count?). They were so excited for this moment, that my dad wore a suit, my mom dressed up, and they even did a little fashion show for me at the hotel the night before the ceremony. Too cute.
And thinking back now, on that weekend, I'm sure the general theme around the school and with parents were "I'm so proud of you." Yes, the parents were proud of their kids for completing school, for working hard and getting a diploma. But now that I think about it, I am proud of you, Mom and Dad.
I'm proud that I have you as parents, that you love me the way you do, and that you have supported me through so much. I am proud of you for realizing that you can take a step back and still let me shine, that you don't need to hold my hand through everything, and that we can laugh and have fun together. I am grateful that you let me decide where to go to college, and what subject to major in, even if you never really understood it. I am grateful to you Dad, for all the college visits we made senior year of high school, and for liking Northeastern as much as I did when we first came here. I am grateful that you two always forgave me when I forgot to call, and that you called to check up on me as much as you did (even if I didn't appreciate it at the time). So, while you may be proud of me for graduating college, I am even more proud to have you as parents. Thank you.
Graduation was really for my parents, not for me. I had forgotten that I was their firstborn and that I was graduating from college. Technically the first in my family to do so (do cousins count?). They were so excited for this moment, that my dad wore a suit, my mom dressed up, and they even did a little fashion show for me at the hotel the night before the ceremony. Too cute.
And thinking back now, on that weekend, I'm sure the general theme around the school and with parents were "I'm so proud of you." Yes, the parents were proud of their kids for completing school, for working hard and getting a diploma. But now that I think about it, I am proud of you, Mom and Dad.
I'm proud that I have you as parents, that you love me the way you do, and that you have supported me through so much. I am proud of you for realizing that you can take a step back and still let me shine, that you don't need to hold my hand through everything, and that we can laugh and have fun together. I am grateful that you let me decide where to go to college, and what subject to major in, even if you never really understood it. I am grateful to you Dad, for all the college visits we made senior year of high school, and for liking Northeastern as much as I did when we first came here. I am grateful that you two always forgave me when I forgot to call, and that you called to check up on me as much as you did (even if I didn't appreciate it at the time). So, while you may be proud of me for graduating college, I am even more proud to have you as parents. Thank you.
yum yum.
Thanks to K and P for the yummy desserts yesterday. Your timing was belated (date auction was last semester!) and yet also convenient (graduation just passed). But your thoughtfulness was just right. =) Also way to go on making me and L paranoid for about 15 minutes about whatever tricks we thought you had up your sleeves.... haha.
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