what.do.you.want.

I suppose it seems like a really simple question. What do you want? But ask anyone this, and you'll find out it's more complicated than that.

What DO you want? What do *I* want? It seems lately that people around me are more and more unsure. And that's the worst, isn't it? If you knew what you wanted, the question would be Now, how do I get that? But when you don't know what you want, when you can't even formulate an opinion, a thought, a preference... it's so paralyzing and creates such a paranoia that whatever you decide, whatever step you take... might, might, might be the wrong one. And that's a risk no one wants to take.

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I have about four weeks left of work. I am counting down the days until I do not need to wake up at 5:30 in the morning anymore. I miss being in college. I miss sitting around in the student center, and running into people. I miss wearing jeans.